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www.onlyfans.com/headingeastorwest Fuck, I wish my last plan wasn't foiled by circumstances and matters completely out of my control, or I'd of been out this shit show already. I was there, I was excited, ready, happy, cruising out of this existence that I dont want to be in and i dont belong in. I had the 4 walls that were free from molestation and sexual trade, that were just to be mine, where i could plant my feet and get my life back. What I didn't anticipate was my son, the one who took his diagnosis out, in 2022, before I started in this "job", on the one he was the closest to, in proximity that is, that led me to this career choice to survive, it was that or the streets of Phoenix, Az. and I would be that person again and again if thats what he needs to cope. Oh wait, that is exactly what the fuck is happening again. He's been in remission for almost 2 years, pretty much the entire time I've been out here trying to survive, he was also doing the same; we were without each other. He has had to adapt to the use of only 1 arm, and does an amazing job at coping with this disability at such a young age. Hes had to take on a life he doesn't want to live, the same as I have had to do, the same as a lot of people who are faced without any help from anyone else in the world, who chose to not become a complete burden on society, who are stubborn enough to want to make it through adversity and challenges most can't overcome, while still being a really good human, and not conducting business in a negative or foul way, even if the business isnt legal in some parts of the world. I dont know how I survived, and he didnt think he would even be alive today, but here we both are, trying to not be who we currently have had to become, wanting to start over in a new place, where nobody knows us for what we have been perceived to be, not who we really are as a person, because that is apparently the only thing that matters in a world full of fake people, full of judgement, with not one care as to how their selfish actions might affect anyone else besides themselves. Or because their own fucked up life somehow becomes less shitty to them if they make someone elses life miserable too. My son had 1 bad scan, and is avoiding the follow-up one which could confirm a diagnosis not one of you sacks of shit who spend your days lying, manipulating, preying upon, calculating, using, waisting, would ever be able to handle. Who would expect the world to be handed to you by the very people you spend your days laughing at now. I dont condone your behavior, or my own, but I at least see it as wrong and want out of it, and just because you all are in a hobby of pathetic existence doesn't give you a right to spend your days tormenting others. Now, I am talking about the cordinated efforts of you douchebags who write lies about me because I refused to move in with you after meeting you 1 time. Or those who I tried to be kind and say i wasnt freeling well, ir some excuse, because im not interested in doing anything together, and tried to hand your money back, but wont accept and turn into the evilest humans full of threats that could land your asses where they really belong, but I see how me doing that might negatively affect you and i dont. Just like the many of married men, or business owners who I could easily negatively affect, but wont stoop down to your level after you attack me, use me, or hurt me in some fashion, and go about saying lies about me to make yourself look or feel good. I know for a fact I am not alone in these cases, and one day you will all get yours. The only thing i am simply asking you is dont contact me if youre one of these douchebags, and save us both the trouble. Every single call is absolute garbage lately and I dont deserve this shit, if its because you think my rates are too high, fuck off, they're gonna keep climbing the more bullshit I have to endure to see 1 man thats worthy of seeing. Dont tell me I can trust you either, because weve met before, so many I saw 1 time, has tried to fuck me over the next. Its no wonder other providers are straight cunts, you all make us this way. I am simply trying have an orgasm too, and live my life the way i chose to live it, and its really none of your business anyways. Since it seems that i get the more genuine men, many whom have never gone through with calling before by telling my story, then here it is, please for the love of humanity and my sanity call me. I have a new goal, a new plan, and an exit strategy id like to achieve before I drive off a cliff.
